Once on leave, Andrea spent the days trembling in fear, anxious about what to do during the day.
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And eventually she wrote me a note to get me off of work because I wasn’t able to teach anymore. So now I had a different problem, which is I’m someone who always needs to be busy, as many anxious people are. I’m not good when my mind is idle. So now all of a sudden I had the whole day before me. I would work on a website that I have about reading, but I would exercise and the day was free and I would spend most of the day trembling in fear about what I was going to do during the day. So I was obsessing a lot, and then I would go to sleep scared of the next day. And really the only time that I felt okay was when I went into bed at night, funnily enough, because I wasn’t sleeping that well. But you know, at night time the world just shuts down, everybody’s at home. Most people are.
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